I know I didn't start this way even after I had a kid, and suddenly I find myself wondering...since when? Since when... is it okay to sleep on spit up because "its just spit up?" Since when...do pants "fit" just because it is humanly possible to button them? Since when...is it ok to fake sleep when you know your child is up and digging because it seems easier to clean up the mess later than get out of bed? Since when... do strangers feel it necessary to apologize , encourage, or reprimand me? Since when... Does 50 dollars on diapers in one trip sound CHEAP? Since when... Does driving an extra 15 miles around the backside of Spartanburg sound easier than getting out of the car? Since when...does the cost of a babysitter amount to more than you can spend shopping? Since when...do I have the superpower of seeing hazards in every house: cords, outlets, glass, decorations, furniture, anything WHITE, pens, electronics, drinks, scissors, oh Lord if there is something sentimental! Since when...does my daughter acting exactly like me freak me out? Since when... Did I give in and just start wearing shoes or socks instead of vacuuming? Since when...did I actually stop judging other parents? Since when... Can I go to the mall and feel like I don't even know where to look because it isn't target or walmart? Since when... Does going to work sound like a break? Since when...does the content of my children's conversations with each other amaze me? Since when... Did my husband and I have anything to talk about other than kids? Since when... Do I know my mom and dad really did know best...about EVERYTHING? Since when... Do I know the lyrics to EVERY theme song on cartoons? Since when... Are drive thrus the only food attainable in the world? Since when... Is making it out of the house less than 2 hrs from when I decided to leave "good time." Since when... Does life seem so short? and the generation ahead of me seem so young? Since when... Is it really OKAY if I never get my dreams ...if my kids get theirs? Really it is... Since when... Does prayer seem like a constant conversation with God about my children? Since when... Do the words to Mary about being "highly favored" among women seem so easy to relate to? Since when...am I soooooo loved unconditionally? Since when... Did my heart grow? Since when... Can I see a newborn and actually begin to understand the miracle? Since when...did I REALLY become a mother? | |